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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

Good Bye

Yesterday night i am crying for 4 hour.
sleepless + tired
a thing that i worry to happen finally happened.


When i step in to AUDITION
i realise something LOST
i keep press this press that
i have to accept i LOST my audi COUPLE RING
the HOLY RING,level 21.
waiting for the update but the wish are forever GONE.
no more promise.


Than,i rush go to msn asking for the TRUE.
He do really Click the Button.
He do it!
one years plus we earning & he just click it in one second.
how hurt am i.
Althought i have boy friend now!
but you are not SUPPOSE to do it!
i have my property to know!
we put many effort,use very long time to earn it together.
everything is gone.
my heart is BROKEN.
totally broken.
No One understand how i feel.
you break the RING
and
you do break my heart too.


the reason i get is becoz CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!
without any discuss & explain.
he decided himself!
he is selfish!
I Hate Him.
He hurt me deeply.
deep and deeply.
i cant breath well.
i feel LOST,UPSET and BREAKDOWN.
I feel sick.
my tears just non-stop come out from my eye,
likes paip water.
never stop.
my keyboaard all my tears
my keyboard all the tears that i keeping for so long.
very long time i never cry but now i do!
i cry without voice,
cry likes a MAD WOMAN.
yes i do it!
almost 4 hour.
sit in front of pc.
people say cry out will feel better
but i feel more bad,
i cry till no energy.
cry till sleepy
but my brain just EMPTY.
he just OFF n Go like that.
And leave me a msg after that.
RUBBISH!


i hate him.
deeply deeply.
he tell me he do love me,
thinkinf of me.
but why?
always must last minutes only let me know?
why when i am waiting for you you not there?
why not care me just a lil more?
why everything must you break it?
why u say u love me u never show it?
why?
why?

who tell me why?
I already tell you all the TRUE yesterday.
no more thing i can tell.
no more thing i can do.
i accept what u did.
whatever will be.


Thanks for the HURT.
Thanks for everything that you did.


You tell me IT'S NOT GOODBYE
but u never tell me what i should do!
you never let me know how i can do now!
I ask you do u want me get off from ur life,
you say NO
but...
i never have any answer from you.



In the message.
you say:
I sorry for doing wrong thing.
I still young, not enough experience.
I said again if you happy with him,
u be with him ba,
i will jux wish you...
Last long..


I AM CRYING after see ur message.
I never reply you.
now i reply here.
the very last message for you.


i say:
Your sorry is not use for me.
your sorry not make me feel better.
what you did showing how deep you hurt me.
you not feel it but i do get it deeply.
I get hurt finally.
Thanks for your wish,
If this is your wish,
i will be with him happily.
Goodbye,My Love!



I will promise myself,

no more tears drop for you,
drop because of you,
no more,
and no more..
you will never see me anymore.
and anymore..
Good Bye.



Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Guess What?!



Is Mii~

Sunday planing go to watch 2012
What the fcuk!!!!!
the ticket all FULL,SOLD
my god!
i go at early morning to buy ticket
But...
i feel EMO sia~
**pity him keep tam me back**


Guess wat?!
I am wearing couple tee at my sunday with him
somemore S size!!!
uh~!
GOSH,the size that i never wear before at my life!!!!
**becoz i cannot fix size S**
but now i can wear it~!!!!
for other people they feel nothing,
but for me i am happy!!!
xixi~!
feel happy...=]


have to put much more effort
but i feel easy hungry recently!
always thinking want to eat supper OH MY GOD!
GOD PLS SAVE ME!
i dont want become fatty again!!!!




2012 I MUST WATCH!
MUST WATCH!!!!


time go bed!
Nitez~

Friday, November 20, 2009

谢谢'你'!

大家好!
好久没用华语来打部落格了

刚才爬上网去看了很多美女的部落格
她们都很漂亮
认识的不认识的统杀
=]

看过了很多不一样的心情
了解不一样的心态
突然想起了过去.


有些事很难避免因为到最后我们总要面对
有些人我们很讨厌但是我们还是得面对他们
不过啊~
最重要的还是要有自我中心
爱自己,疼自己.
懂得爱自己才懂得爱别人
懂得珍惜,爱惜.


突然想起了以前的我,
那个微不足道,不起眼的我.



就是一个,
在事过境迁后,
才知道自己失去了什么,
才领悟到曾经所拥有的一切才是其实是幸福的女人.
我曾经天真地以为他就是一切.
也太过于依赖以及任性,
当失去的时候,
我措手不及,
我根本没有能力振作起来,
那些流过的泪水,握过的手,感动的画面,
美好,不美好的回忆,
都不由自主地浮先在脑海
不断地骚扰着我

花了很久的时间才让自己振作起来,
那些日子一点都不好过,
活在遗憾的回忆中,
生不如死.
但我相信时间可以让一切褪色
那些回忆慢慢地在我的脑海里沉淀
日子久了,
我不再茫然,
我不再徘徊,
我不再掉眼泪,
我不在为一个不再在乎自己的男人掉眼泪.
给了的爱收不回,
只好选择放手.
这两年,
我过得很好,
也不断地充实自己,
没有你就没有今天的我,
谢谢你曾经出现在我的人生,
谢谢你给我那么''的打击,
让我知道世界上有你这种男人.
谢谢你以前对我所付出的一切,
谢谢你的一切.


记得我说过如果你想再交女友欢迎来找我吗?
突然觉得以前的自己好笨好傻!
被你这样糟蹋和耻辱.
还被你说得一文不值.
我记得,
你说我肥婆,骂我脏话
我都一一接受了.
你说的话,比刀还利,
当时你彻底的把我的心敲碎.
我只能哭,只能接受.
当时,
没有人体会我的感受
我一个人承担了一切.
记得我的朋友骂醒也教醒了我.
就算你失去了他,地球还是一样回走.
有道理.
慢慢地,我开始习惯了没有他的日子.
我告诉自己:
我一定要改变自己,
彻底地改变.
我开始尝试很多东西,
让自己变得充实.
想告诉他:
没有他给我的打击就没有今天的我.
我过着与他像陌生人的生活要到两年.
虽然现在
我们已经瓦解了多年的阴影与过去.
做回了朋友,回到了原点.
到最后,
你给我的还是伤害.
也许你还很幼稚.
不过最后,
我感激你,
也祝你幸福.

我不懂他怎么想
不过我相信他看了也不会有什么感受,
因为我已经不在他心里,
他老早就把我抛得远远.
而我也是个不值得他去想的人.



最后,
没有你,我就不会遇到比你更好的男人,
现在,
我很幸福,
因为有了真正属于我的男人,
我很快乐,
谢谢你让我知道如何珍惜自己所爱的人.


-终止-





Thursday, November 19, 2009

Genting Trip IPAQ I

Tuesday 17/11
go genting with my classmate & lecturer
=]
a happy & nice trip for me!

Play lots of game that day~
Happy~

reach there at 10pm like that

start play at outdoor 12.30pm like that

lucky weather quite good that day

THANKS GOD~
God Bless!

Meet up at 6pm
start go back home at 7pm becoZ of our **delay**
xD

a simple n just nice trip
still got some photo at my lecturer camera there
will get it n update soon
=]



Lets Pic Talk~


I LOVE THIS PHOTO~
Thanks sayang~!

Taken by Lily~
happy cycling!
xD




When reach there...
Excited!
xD



**Lose in gamble face**
idea from lily...
LOLS



2 red hair...
=]


Going back time
STARBUCKS ICE BLENDED~!


Coming up next Genting Trip IPAQ II


Monday, November 16, 2009

Excited

YEAH~
tomorrow going genting with my classmate
first time join group activity with classmate
hopes have a nice trip tomorrow
god please dont let the rain fall
>_<"
i wanna play all the games at outdoor if can
=]
will definely play likes a siao zha bor and camp-whole too
but sure will be very tired!
have to meet up at my skul there at 7am
oh my god!



Going to sleep soon!
Nites!

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Tired

Going bed now!
I am really exhausted & tired
this few day dont have nice & enough sleep time
gonna replace back all
AND
my dark circle and pimple are coming out!
oh my god
!!!!!

nites...


Saturday, November 14, 2009

Update DONE!


my current hair style
^_^



Finally my update done!
not really special but i will try my best to fix it
will make my blog looks nicer than last time

feel this blog layout can use more long time
if compare v the last few layout!

Time go bed!
and choosing what to wear for tomorow
=]


tomorrow have to pei my bestie go to dye her hair,
and than eat a very important dinner!!



♥Nites Reader!